I don't know how to say this except that I'm really down, depressed. I know where it is rooted and I know what to do about it. For me staying up (not high) and productive is all about self care. I have to get enough sleep, I can't over work and wear myself out, I have to get out and enjoy myself regularly and I have to avoid stress. Some people will deny they become depressed and keep pushing ahead but it gets to everyone eventually. So take care of yourselves, rest, relax, socialize a enjoy time off. Then budget your work time, plan and schedule your production and your relaxation. Be well and be creative.